Ol Ye Can Of Worms

The past is supposed to stay in the past… But the past almost always has a tendency, sooner or later, to catch up with you… What then? Would you deal with it so that you could all go on with your lives? Or would you just ignore it and hope that it’ll just go away by itself?

The past stays in the past… A past without closure is never going to be a past because it will always haunt the present… And it gets worse every time it does… Numerous questions come racing through your mind with no way to answer them… Truth and lies… half-truth and half-lies… reality and wishful thinking… everything mixed together… and then confusion sets in…

The past that should have stayed in the past… I now find myself caught in the middle of 2 people’s past… A past that now affects my present and my future… Numerous questions have already raced through my head and going nowhere because I can and never will know the real story… one without truth and lies mixing together because I wasn’t there to see it myself… I didn’t even know that this particular past would affect me so much… It was amusing at first then it kept on haunting me until I thought I’d go berserk… So I did what any sane person would do… I asked for the truth…

Searching for the truth is the same as opening a nasty can of worms in this particular past… It turned out my life intertwined with their story although somewhat indirectly… One of them admitted to never really liking the other one and that the reason for their brief “relationship” was because I wasn’t available at that time but that other person was … the other side of the story was totally different… The other person admitted to being courted by the other one but turned it down and was now regretting that decision… As for me, confusion now set in… I was stuck in a limbo… which one of them was telling the truth? Who was lying? I realized now that I can and never will know the real story no matter how much prodding I do… I just have to learn to trust my instincts and listen to my heart… the important thing is that I am loved truthfully and that past no longer matters… For the others, I may have indirectly something to do about that particular past but that “relationship” ended by itself… Let the chips fall where they may and let us all get on with our lives…

And by the way, I would gladly appreciate it if that particular past no longer haunt us… We may have problems as a couple; it is quite natural after all, but it does not mean we love each other any less or that we’re no longer happy with each other…

I have now come into terms with this particular past and I charge it to experience… And I wish that someday the other person would also find the love, happiness and acceptance that we are all looking for…

My Days of Whine and Neurosis

Insomnia, loss of appetite, depression, and a sudden attack of headache so severe you just have to close your eyes (every time I see couples walking by) are my sure-fire signs & symptoms of THE pre-valentines syndrome.

This, if you haven’t envisioned it yet, is the equivalent of the pre menopausal stage. Some might blame it to bitterness (who? me? bitter?! of course not!), stress or even raging hormones (i’m past that stage please). Who knows? But hasn’t anyone noticed that every time this season arrives, every one starts pairing up. There’s suddenly an attack of the notorious love bug. It’s like noah’s ark all over again (only people who come in pairs will be saved!). What about people who come in stag? It’s like being single on this season is a big fashion no-no. Just this day, my bestfriend and I went to makati to watch fun with dick and jane. What I thought would just be another day in the mall turned out to be the attack of the pink anything. Every thing now comes in pink. Pink bears, pink panther (the movie haha), pink pillows, pink flowers, pink hearts… it was such an overdose of pink that even I (who has my own collection of pink stuff) almost gagged. It was like walking in a cotton candy factory only it wasn’t even nice.

I have nothing against this season, just to clear things up. I, actually, whole-heartedly encourage love (make love not war!) I even think it’s sweet when I see couples (real couples and not just the seasonal ones wherein the relationship disappears after valentines day) doing simple, sweet gestures. I just think that this season is highly overrated. Oh well. I can’t blame the media for milking it for what its worth. It is highly profitable (as we have experienced doing haranas back in college Ü). I just hope that people won’t overlook the real meaning of valentines day. It’s not about pairing up and hooking up with the guy/girl that’s most accessible to you just so that you can proclaim to everyone that you weren’t lonely this valentines day. It’s about reminding everyone that despite all the RVAT that our crummy government is shoving down our throats or the never ending increase in oil price, some good still exists among us and that is love. My goodness! This is like my most serious post. Well, have a happy valentines people and remember to make love not war! Ü

As for me, I’m going to spend my valentines day doing harangs with the chorale (I miss doing this Ü) and then having our annual valentines date Ü with or without a special someone. Some people don’t need to have one just to have a happy valentines day. I’ll just reiterate, for some peoples benefit, I am not bitter because bitterness is next to ugliness hehehehe Ü

Double-Triple Damn!

Darn!

Darn! Darn! Darn! Darn!

Just when you think everything’s finally a-ok, life suddenly throws you a hardball… Darn! So much for living blissfully happy & content ever after…

Darn! Darn! Darn!

WANTED: A Real Man

Girls, have you ever felt like there’s no decent guy left?

Before you guys start complaining about your male ego, think about it.

Is there no decent guy left? It’s hard not to stereotype but most guys nowadays have no scruples when it comes to cheating on their girlfriends.

Why is that? Is it some "male ego instinct" that they have to prove that they’re viable?? So what if you have enough charm to ensnare more than one girl? Would it make you less of a man if you can’t?

I, for one, think it’s more "macho" if a guy can stay monogamous and proud of it.